I don't want to write this post. But I realized that there are people who read my blog that knew and loved my brother that may not be aware that he passed yesterday, at 19 years old. We don't know what happened, all we know right now is that he didn't wake up. This is the most recent picture I have of him. He's playing with Tennyson when we went home to visit in February. Oh how grateful I am that we went. I miss him. It is beginning to feel real, but I don't think I'll feel the full brunt of his loss for months. There are things that he will never get to do, but I have faith that he will still be able to fully appreciate and enjoy our lives as we continue to live here on this Earth.
My emotions are still quite raw. Obviously. I'll be heading to Alaska tomorrow night to be with my family. Right now the only thing I can think of is how do we get past this? How do we heal? How do we move on with a noticeable hole in our lives. Casey is an amazing young man. I don't want to write "was" because he is still living, just not on this Earth. He is in our Father's care. I hope he knows how much I love him. How much I wanted him to experience. How much I wanted him to be here. How badly I wanted him to experience my children's lives. How much I wanted them to experience him while they could remember him.
There is so much I still don't know - about everything. And so much I still can't do. Please pray for my family; and for me.
14 comments:
Sam,
I am so sorry. My heart aches for you, your parents, and your family. This is a terrible sorrow to have to endure. You are all in my prayers. Much love.
Elizabeth
I love you, cous! What a difficult thing to deal with and to heal. When Jimmy's brother died, it took time-- time doesn't heal the pain, but it makes it easier. You're in my thoughts and prayers!
Sam I am so sorry. This made me cry for you. I can't even imagine but you seem to have so much faith even now. I'll be praying for you.
Wendy
My heart is aching for you and your family right now. I am sorry for your loss. Remember that this earth life is but just a small moment. You will be with Casey again for eternity. I know you and your family take comfort in that. I love you Sammy. I am praying for you and your family.
Oh Sammy and family, I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. My heart is just hurting thinking about what you guys are having to go through right now. Please know that my family is praying for you. I think of your family often, and all the fun we had together- every time we are near Friendship Park, I think if all the parties we would have at your house. I love your family and please know that we are praying for you guys. I love you.
This is a beautiful tribute. I am sorry for your loss. I pray for peace and comfort.
I am gratiful for the small time I was able to be with him; he even got to stay at our house.
Sam,
So sorry. You will be in my prayers. Safe travels and I will check on you when you get back. Love you.
I felt the Spirit so strong when I read your post. I know what you said is true. He still lives. It's hard to know what to say but I just want you to know I love you so much and admire your strength and faith. I hope your heart is full of peace as you heal.
i'm so sorry for your loss. we'll be praying for you and your family. let us know if there is anything we can do for you or your family.
So sorry to hear of your loss. We'll be praying for you and your family!
Sam... I love you. I wish that I could be there with you. It's just so overwhelmingly sad. I can't even imagine how you feel, but I am here for you if you need anything at all!
Sam I'm really sorry about your loss and the pain you will have to endure. Just remember you have a lot of support, lots of people cheering you on, even in times where you feel alone.
I'm so sorry to hear about your dear brother, we will be praying for you!
Sammy-
I'm so sorry for your family's loss. Oh what a blessed thing the gospel is... to know that you'll be with him again. It's comforting and yet doesn't take away the pain from not having him here now. :'( I wish i could just give you and your mom a big hug right now. Your family is in our prayers.
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